He loves us just as we are, right where we are

I’ve had such a great week of ups and downs and have so much to share. Not only have I spent time with God, but I’ve spent time with other believers which leads to hearing from God through them, as well. I love my people!😊

I’m leading the Bible study, “When God doesn’t Fix it” at my house with a few friends that have been such a blessing. It’s so on point with where I am in, in my own walk and just what I need to be hearing. It seems to be the same for the others too.

This week, it covered the story of Abraham and Sarah and their struggle with infertility. It was the perfect story of real people that had sinned and tried their own ways without fully trusting in God’s plan for them. But, even with that, God didn’t give up on them. They persevered in their faith and God granted the desires of their heart with the birth of their son at 100 years old. When we put our complete faith in Him, He will see us through to the very end and give us the desires of our heart!

We decided to have that kind of faith

1. We have to be intentional about putting God first in our lives. Making it a priority to be daily in His Word. It truly is a lamp unto our feet and a light unto our path. Giving direct instructions in every thing we face and the strength we need to keep going, when we feel like we can’t. It’s the Living Word that gives new hope in every new situation. The same words, but different meaning, depending on what we’re facing.

2. Be faithful in prayer. Pray the Word, BELIEVE, receive and take the authority that we have through Him!

3. Surround yourself with other believers. They can laugh with us, cry with us and support us through whatever we face in this crazy life. I clung tightly to my circle when I was going through such a tough time and I still cling tightly to them today, getting through to the other side of it. Now. we just get to celebrate the victories!!!

4, Learn and grow from what we walk through and live out an example to those around us.

Even with the good things this week, I was really struggling with some things. I was pushed a little (spurred a little, if you go to Charity lol) to be reminded of what I already knew from within my own spirit, to keep going and to hear and obey!

I’ve shared the song that’s been the prayer for my life lately. It starts with, I don’t want to hear anymore, teach me to listen; I don’t want to see anymore, but give me a vision. To change me to handle the circumstances, when the circumstances aren’t changed.

My kids are getting older and my #1 mom fail was not making them help when they were little.

My love language is acts of service, both giving and receiving them. I thought I was being a good mom by doing everything for them. As they get older, I realize that I wasn’t helping them to become the best that they are meant to be.

Being a single mom is an overwhelming responsibility and I’m not their maid or their secretary and they need to help me and respect me. How will they ever know, though, if I do everything for them and not teach them to do it own their own. Tough love is just that, especially for me, but they’ll thank me for it later. My dad made us walk the line when we were younger and I’m so glad now he did!!! My brother tested the limits a lot more than I did, but I think we both turned out A-OK. Now, instilling in our kids, what was instilled in us!

I’m raising future husbands and wives; mom’s and dads; uncles and aunts. Plus, when I’m older I want them to come spend time with me and help in the yard and carry out the trash cans etc. I’ll put them to work and they’ll do it happily because they know it’s what’s important to me!😜

If you’ve never done the discovering your love language, it’s really good to see how we relate with others. There’s one for yourself and for your kids

http://www.5lovelanguages.com/

I’ve done this 100 times, even changing my answers, but acts of service is always my top.

As I get older and my kids get older, spending time with them becomes more of a top one for me. Time flies and tomorrow is never promised!!!!

They have no idea how happy it makes all of us moms, when they’re all home together. There’s nothing that makes me happier. I push for it every chance I get!

My kids (some more than others) want my attention for their EVERY need NOW. I can’t do it all! But, what I can do is stop and listen for the things that are most important to them and make them the most important to me. The rest they can learn to do own their own and become better for it!!

Even at 43, my mom wants to remind me of what I should be doing and especially what the kids need me to be doing for them. I’ll answer, ok Mother😊 She hates it when I call her that.

It’s not that things are going one ear and out the other. It’s a ✅, I get it, I just have to prioritize the things that are most important right now.

I don’t want to make this too long, but just this week God gave me vision late Friday night and by Sat at 10 AM, it was in full swing. I actually didn’t even have the details worked out. I showed up expecting a green light to go for it and I got it! It all went better than I could’ve ever imagined. It all came about from something my mom initiated, without her even knowing it. Keep doing and reminding me mom, even when I call you mother.😘

I had breakfast with a friend Sat. morning and we discovered this from talking about being used by God in our jobs, in our families and in our churches……Who knew we could be a hot mess and a shining light at same time😂. But, we sure can be. God loves us as we are and where we are. He can use us, if we let Him! She shared her favorite song with me and it’s perfect!

Big dreams can lead to big things. But, it’s the small dreams that create simple moments that can change the world!!! I pray, I’ll never forget that!

Have a great week! Thanks for letting me share!

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“He will never leave you nor forsake you”

A little long today. but it’s been a long journey!😊

If you’ve been following, I’ve shared the timeline of the healing from my divorce. It truly is such a process. One day at a time, one step at a time, one thing at a time.

I divorced on October 11, 2011

I just found something I’d written from a sermon I heard on August 26, 2012. I usually remember defining times like this and am usually forever grateful for the messenger. But, this one I didn’t remember until I read what I had written from years ago.

It said basically this….It was so encouraging that today’s message confirmed what I’ve already been putting into practice. Knowing that God truly does order our steps and we don’t have to worry because He is in control! We really can experience the power of the Holy Spirit and the freedom we have in taking authority and claiming His Word over our lives!

From what I had written, In weeks prior to hearing that message, I was on the right track. I had been experiencing an AMAZING presence of The Holy Spirit like He was right there with me, giving me direction and instruction and promises that what I’d been living through was the dark before the morning.

I wrote that I was entering into a new season and I rejoiced in advance for the joy that was coming with it!

If you’ve been around me lately, I had no idea then of the joy that I’d be receiving and am experiencing now!

The joy of The Lord within me has been unbelievable!! People have commented that I’m glowing. I’ve laughed so hard at everything and nothing at the same time, I’ve heard people say that they want what I’m taking!! I’ve laughed so hard, driving in the car with kids that I couldn’t breathe or see how to drive!

I feel like a laughing lunatic and want to initially be apologetic. But, I’m soaking it all in! I know I’m at a high on life and in The Lord. It’ll  come a time it won’t be this way. I may not always be at such a high. But, one thing I know for sure, I will never go back to that dark place.

As I’m typing this, I’m realizing something. Going back to that dark place has been my fear lately and something that I’ve been praying about. Just last week, I was woken up at 3:30 in the morning with words that God gave me 2 years ago through someone else, right after I shared my written testimony. They told me, “It’s a rebirth in Christ and you’ll never be the same again.” It was going back looking for those words in an email that led me to all of this other old writing. God is so good and faithful!!!

I also wrote that I had turned songs into my prayers and my prayer then was that “The Hurt and The Healer” would collide! I was so hopeful for my future!

My prayers were answered and “The Hurt and The Healer” collided!!! God is so good and it’s amazing to be experiencing His goodness!

Last week I posted examples of how I’ve handled things in my life with almost the very same words that I had written about all those years ago and forgot about!! But now, the song I pray is “To be Different and Changed”.

From the words in this song, I also pray that I don’t want to hear anymore, but that He’ll teach me to listen. It’s so easy to get busy and caught up in the schedules and doing everything that we have to do. But, we should stop and listen better! For me, it’s to my kids that think every phone call that I’m supposed to make and their every ailment should be my top priority. They’re not, but to them it’s everything. May I stop to listen and realize the things that are most important to them and make those things my top priority!

I pray to listen more spiritually too! He speaks to us when we listen. Listening is just the first a part of it though. To then be obedient is the hardest part!!! Don’t ever be afraid to be obedient to the things you hear through the Holy Spirit! Other people need to hear it! Other people need to know that God is hearing their prayers!

The song also says, I don’t want to see anymore but give me a vision. I’ve been overflowing with ideas of things to do. May I realize the things that are visions, to see them finished out to help reach the hearts and lives of others!

I’ve shared how hearing Theresa Kemp in 2014, was another step and turning point in my walk. When she prayed over me, she reminded me that I wasn’t this, this and this (she used the exact negative words that had been hammered into my head and I believed) but that I was a child of God, made in His image. I will be forever grateful that God used her that day to say exactly what I needed to hear.

On May 24, 2016, God connected me with my now a wonderful friend that I will be forever grateful for. I never intended to share this openly, but it’s too funny now and too good not to share. “All things truly do work together for good to them that love God, to them who are called according to his purpose.” (Romans 8:28)

We were talking to the same guy at the same time and didn’t know it or each other. It was really no big deal because neither of us were serious about him, but STILL! It  was a welcome to the dating world at 40 +.

She and I didn’t know each other, BUT GOD, in his mysterious ways connected us. She ended up sharing her faith with me and that time, I had gotten off track. She reminded me what it was like to be daily in His Word. She told me that day to become better and not bitter from my circumstances. I don’t know what my future holds. But, from that I’ve learned that I’d rather be single for the rest of my life in a good relationship with the Lord, than to just settle for the wrong relationship for the wrong reasons! I’ve been at fault for this many times in life. May I stay 💪💪!

From our conversation, I made a commitment to be daily in His Word and to be intentional about living for Him! I’ve never been the same since!! She and I have remained friends and continually encourage, support and pray for one another! I would not wish the 40+ divorced & single life on anyone. But, having someone there that understands is so helpful!

God was moving in such a way from all this, I felt led to write out my testimony and share it with every single person that had been a part of my life, as far back as I could remember. I had written in 2016 that I hoped to share it at Charity Church someday because so many there were a part of it.

This brings me to now and being led back to Charity Church where I’ve recorder my testimony to share someday. Being back there led to writing which has brought such healing and to blogging!

Only God could do these amazing things. It almost seems unbelievable, if you hadn’t been there with me through it! From writing this all out, it seems like, the defining times are two years apart. Only God knows what 2020 will bring but I BELIEVE, it’ll be great things!!!! He is far from finished is the vision/statement I made for myself for 2018. Those too, were God’s words spoken to me through someone else and couldn’t be more true! God is so good and faithful!

I just want to encourage anyone that is going through a rough time to never give up! He is our hope, our joy and our strength!

Have a great week and thank you for letting me share!!

There is Power in Prayer

I’ve shared so much on here and on facebook, if you’re friends with me there, that I hope not to be repetitive. But, it’s so amazing to be seeing almost every prayer, I’ve ever prayed over the last 20 yeas answered, just as I prayed them. It makes going rough years worth it!!! Knowing that God was there and heard my cries, even when I didn’t feel like He was. To now, answering new prayers just about as instantly as I pray them!

I’m a big believer in the power of prayer and spent alot of years doing what I was taught to do and praying over my kids. I spent a lot of time talking with my pastors, at then Charity Tabernacle,  when my kids were little.They taught me how to pray over my kids as they slept, praying the scriptures and speaking life over them. I still talk with my pastor, at now Charity Church. But, it’s about the good things that have come from my prayers being answered. With a million questions on the “how to’s” of life and parenting as my kids get older. This phase with them is a tougher one and all new to me!!!

I was telling my youngest daughter about praying over them and she said “Don’t be coming in my room, I like my privacy” 😂 She doesn’t know it, but it’s something I’ve always done! As they get older, they want to fight against me sometimes, but I can still pray over them and know that “His word will not return to me empty…..”. -Isaiah 55:11 Look up the rest of it! 🙂

Even though I’m living in a great time of my prayers being answered, I still have to face things and other’s that want to fight against me. I find great comfort in knowing that no matter, what and who we face in life, that God is in control! Knowing that “No weapon formed against me will prosper.” Isaiah 54:17. It doesn’t say that they won’t form, but that they won’t prosper. On that word, I stand and find comfort!

I wasn’t always the best about having my kids in youth group and activities. But, I have tried to lead by example with them. Ask them and they’ll say I’m annoying and have a favorite and who knows what else they would tell you, but I have tried!

My oldest daughter shares the same belief as I do in the power of prayer. She wasn’t always the best athlete, but had the perserverance to succeed. She would come to me before her games and ask me to pray for her when she was nervous. Before one game, she mouthed to me at center court that she was nervous and I went down and prayed with her. It wasn’t an intentional thing, just something that both of us BELIEVE in and find comfort in praying. She made Romans 5:3-5 her life and had it tattoo’d on her ankle. I’m not a fan of tattoo’s, but obviously it’s something that is important to her. Something that is now permanently a part of her.

I was recently reminded of a time when she was little. We were on vacation in FL and she fell and scraped herself up. She came to me and asked me to pray over her scrape. It led to a conversation with a man that was there at the pool with us. God is good and answers our littlest prayers.  Oh, to have faith like a child!

My son is a great athlete and recently verbally committed to a division 1 college as a sophomore. He has strong athletic genes on all sides, they just missed me in my family! 🙄 His dad was a great left-handed pitcher and his dad was too. When my son was little, his dad asked me to be a prayer warrior over  him.

I’ll never forget talking with my pastor and him teaching me to pray over him as I mentioned above. One service, he came to me, took my then little guy from me and carried him around the sanctuary, praying over him. It takes a village to raise kids. I’m thankful for everything and everyone that contributes. But, I give all the glory to God and thank him for answering prayers.

When my son was in elementary school and those monthly Student of the Month character traits were awarded at school, he’d bring his awards home and the tears would just fall. Compassion, kindness and humility were the very characteristics that I’d prayed over him since he was little!

I’ve found that lately kids seemed to be drawn to me and I to them.  At church, I was knelt done praying and felt someone next to me. It was two little girls whom I had never met before and had no idea who they were. I now know their first names and where they go to school. We prayed about their school year and they asked me to pray for their mom and baby brother coming home from the hospital. Pretty amazing how God works!

God is so good and there is power in prayer! There is power in praying The Word. We have the authority to pray things in Jesus name. Take it, Believe it and Receive it! The blessings you’ll see in return will be amazing!

Have a good week and thank you for letting me share!

 

 

 

Be intentional about raising a Godly favor

At the beginning of June. I went back to Charity Church for prayer because of some things I was about to face personally and wanted to be ahead of it in prayer. The presence of the Holy Spirit and the power of prayer there are unbelievable!

I felt a little selfish for going for prayer and not attending there. So, I decided to go back and attend there. I had no idea that going back, would lead to writing that would bring such healing, revealing of truths and confirmation for me, in what I’m walking through.

If you don’t have a church home, I would highly recommend this one. You’ll find the best pastor’s, the best worship team and the best people that will walk along side you through the good and bad, like family. http://www.becharity.com

I was challenged this week by our children’s and youth pastor as they presented the Framework for Family. I’ve done well in some ares, but the topic of sitting around the dinner table and stewardship really convicted me.

Not that everything has to relate to divorce, but because I am divorced, all the new firsts were very hard for me. I recently recorded my testimony that will be shared at Charity Church and in it, I mentioned the every day, little changes, that were heartbreaking. There were days in this season, that I’d get the kids off to school, do what I had to do, go back to bed and pull the covers over my head.

I’ll never forget the first Christmas morning, I set the table for 5 instead of 6. It broke my heart, but I couldn’t go back to bed that particular morning. I had to wipe away my tears and put a smile on my face for my kids! It wasn’t easy because I was hurting myself, they were hurting, which made me hurt quadruplely!!! I hurt when they hurt!!

Time healed that and I adjusted. As a single parent or not, we’re still a family. I try to do fun things with the kids and create new memories and traditions. But, there’s still things that I could do better. Sitting at the table with my family of 5 is one of them!

So, we’ve picked Sunday nights as the one night, it’s a priority to sit down at the table together. My son said, if it didn’t interfere with his fortnite😂 Nope, mom overrules and no excuses!👍

I’m fortunate to have remained financially secure through my divorce, but still not as much so as I was before. I haven’t always been faithful, in my giving. But, I know this, “Give and you’ll receive. Your gift will be returned to you in full~pressed down, shaken together to make room for more, running over and poured into your lap (Luke 6:38)

They also talked about sports and the time and money it requires. We’re a big sports family and there are positives and negatives that come with it. My prayer is to never let sports become such a priority that it takes away from God and how I should be raising my kiddos. That we wouldn’t let the hectic schedules interfere with things like sitting around the dinner table together!

Here’s a video of the service, if you’d like to hear more about Family Framework

A small clip of worship….

(click on it, it’ll work😊)

Have a great week back to school! Thanks for letting me share!!!

Letting go and moving on!!!

It seems like I’d run out of things to write about, but God has really been moving and so much has been flowing within me. Writing has been so helpful in getting it all out, as I move forward in my life!

Moving forward has been such a timely process for me, but I finally feel released to let go and move on!

I believed in my marriage. Well, I believe in the idea of marriage and I took the vows I made literal . I still would’ve been in that relationship, even though it wasn’t good from the get go. But, it was mine and I loved with my whole heart and gave it my all!!

But, he left and there’s nothing I could do about it and nothing more I could’ve tried to make him stay. I’m far from perfect, but I know I couldn’t have done any more within my marriage to make it work!✅

I absolutely have no hard feelings towards him and that can only be because of God. I will always care about him, we have 4 kids together and will be tied together forever in life through them. Plus, he needs everyone looking out for him that he can get😜. Just yesterday, as I walked past his car at the ballpark, I rolled up his windows, grabbed the keys out of the cupholder and locked it for him. There were 2 sets of keys and I grabbed the wrong one . Luckily, it didn’t lock and I was then able to grab the right set and lock it up! Shew!!!

I, also want to thank my family, if anyone reads this, for always honoring my wishes and handling the situation with dignity, kindness, respect and grace. I’m sure they didn’t want to at times, but for my sake and the sake of my kids, they handled it all very well!!! To be honest, my mom had to keep me in check sometimes, reminding me to stay kind for my kid’s sake. Thanks mom😘

I don’t share these things to condemn, but its part of my story and it’s so amazing to see how God brought me through this and could help bring someone else through it too!

Only if you’ve been there, could someone else understand this. Divorce had such a hold over me. I felt such a sense of guilt and failure. I now know that there’s only one reason for divorce, biblically, and I had that in my favor.✅We shouldn’t be unequally yoked with non believers. He claims to be a believer, but wasn’t pursuing after Him. So, I had that in my favor as well. ✅I’m not a bible scholar and don’t really even feel comfortable quoting scriptures. But, that’s what helped me realize, it was ok and to know that I’d done everything I could’ve done plus some✅ A door closed. One that I can lock and throw away the key!✅

Realizing these things, just this summer, I feel released to let go and move on!

God has the best ahead for me and I cannot wait to see what and who!

I completely trust Him and look forward to my future. But, I have to admit, it is very scary and unknown. A lot of changes are coming up for me. My girls are moving out, I’m selling my home that I’ve lived in for 16 years and that I’m very emotionally attached to. May he lead me step-by-step in the perfect direction. Have a good week! Thank you for letting me share!

“Your Love brought me through”

It’s amazing to be living in the years that answer. My prayers, even for the little things are being answered instantly. I had to find my little Maltese a new home. She’s precious and I will miss her, but we just aren’t home enough to take care of and spend the time with her that she deserves. I found the perfect home for her with a friend. I know they’ll love her just as I prayed! It makes me want to start praying to lose 50 lbs and hit the lottery😊. I wish those things would come as instantly, but you never know what could happen when you set your mind to something!

Speaking of, I’ve been talking with friends this week about how we can let things have a hold over our mind that can detour us from living the life we’re meant to.

I let how I was treated verbally have a hold over my mind. I believed every negative thing that was said. I let it steal my peace, my joy, my voice and honestly living my life to the fullest! I did the best I could and got good at smiling on the outside, but was broken, scattered and hurting on the inside!

The one thing it could never steal was the hope I have through Jesus Christ. I’m not in that place anymore! He’s healed me, set me free and put every broken piece back together!!! He’s made me new again, better than I was before. With the broken pieces all put back together, I know that my future is bright and I BELIEVE HE will give me all the desires of my heart!! Life is a journey. Take it one day at a time, one step at a time. He’ll guide you step-by-step, in the perfect order. His love will bring you through!

I was fortunate because how I was talked to and treated could of turned me to alcohol or drugs or to doing something stupid. But, what I did was turn to God & those He purposely put in my life to listen, encourage and teach me how to be an overcomer!

Whatever your situation is that may have a hold over your mind, don’t let it have control over you!!!

Turn to your friends., message me and I’ll be your friend or help you get connected with right people that can help. But, most of all turn to God. Stand on his word and BELIEVE in his promises!

I’ve mentioned Kim Jones Pothier and the influence her ministry has had in my healing. Just this week, she posted something exactly that would help if you’re dealing with this situation

She’s amazing and brings a powerful word!!

In wanting to walk closer with God, this is a perfect song that’s became my prayer for my life. If you want the same thing, Pray it and BELIEVE IT!😊

Another thing, that I’ve talked a lot with other this week is worry and anxiety. We all experience for different reasons But, why do we worry? He’s got it all figured out.

This is something I’ve found to be very helpful!!

https://www.ibelieve.com/faith/a-prayer-for-worry.html

These are just a couple things that I’ve experienced this week that I hope will help someone reading. Have a great weekend and thank you for letting me share!!

I’ve shared how I was brought back to Charity Church and how much I love it there. It’s amazing how aligned what is spoken and sang is so exact with what I’ve walked through, what I’ve already written about, and shared with the exact words, what I’m living through right now.

Blessed by Grace visited a couple of weeks ago and sang this song. It’s unbelievable how God has moved, is moving and can continue to if we let him!!

Check out “Your Love Brought Me Through” by Blessed By Grace Trio on Amazon Music. https://music.amazon.com/albums/B071SG5FYC?do=play&trackAsin=B072C4F916&ref=dm_sh_kbflq8UgBylVTT3psntBasod8

“Be still, and know that I am God”

Wow! What another great week I’ve had! God has revealed so much truth to me and confirmed so many things within my spirit!!

I got to spend quality time with my family and friends, making new memories and strengthening relationships that I already have. Making new friends and reconnecting with old ones. God is so good!!!

Today, I’m resting! I’m being still and trusting in Him! Can’t wait to see what He has next for me!!!!

I did want to mention, a place that was recommended by a dear, sweet friend. I will never publicly share how God connected us😜. But, only God, in His crazy ways!!!

Shepherd’s Gate Inn, located in Martinsville IN, is a beautiful place set up, just for time away with God. They have personal or group retreats. Check it out! http://rest-ministries.org/

Or this….

https://www.springhillcamps.com/experiences/retreat-events/indiana/family-camps

As the kids get ready to go back to school and before we get back in our routines, go do something fun and/or relaxing with your family. Spend quality time & make memories! Tomorrow is never promised! Have a great week! Thanks for letting me share!