He’s Still Working on Me

Today, I find myself very thankful for my friends and family that love me through this journey of life! I’m very blessed to have so many behind me!!

I’ve often wondered who I’d be if my life had turned out as I planned it. I know I wouldn’t have the faith and relationship with Him that I do, if it had. His ways are better than my ways and I trust Him with the plans of my future.

A friend of mine always tells me to be become better and not bitter from every situation. A song that we sang when I was little “He’s still working on Me” comes to mind. He’s still working on me every day and in every situation to make me who I ought to be.

My prayer is that I’ll learn and grow from every situation. I am learning that all things truly do work together for good to them that love God, to them who are called according to His purpose.

I’ve been so blessed this weekend by my kiddos. Parenting is not easy, especially single parenting. But, I’ve seen my kids grow up before my eyes and achieve their dreams! I’ve seen my own prayers for them and their prayers answered. He is a good, good Father, who will never leave us or forsake us.

May we trust Him and have patience in His will for our lives and in His perfect timing!

Thanks for letting me share

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He’s The God of The Hills and Valley’s

I’m not sure where to even begin as I write this week.

God is doing great things in my life. He’s healing me, He’s shaping me and as it’s been spoken over me, He’s taking me further than I’ve ever gone before. All exciting things, but we still have to face life’s issues and when we strive to walk closely with The Holy Spirit, the attack’s of the enemy come at us stronger and stronger. I’ve been pushed this week by people that I love and love me right back to become better. To take control over things that I can change to do things the best way possible!

The good news is if we’re rooted in God’s house, in His Word and and passionate in our prayers, the enemy won’t win!

I would so encourage everyone to get plugged into a church. Iron sharpens iron, so as one person sharpens another. Proverbs 27:17.

It’ll bring encouragement to hear others stories who might have been where you are and vice versa. You can share your story with someone that needs to hear.

I’ve shared how God led me back to my old church. I do love it there, but I have struggled at times with why God wants me there. It’s a 30 min drive from my house, a different denomination than I was raised in and no one in my family attends there. But, I know it’s where God wants me and what I need to be hearing to be a conqueror in what I’m walking through in my life. The messages and songs are in exact alignment with what I’m living through!

Sometimes, we can get so caught up in making it about everything, but about God. The true message of The Gospel is the only truth that matters!

Today, the message of the gospel was shared and our pastor talked not just about salvation, but having a personal relationship with Him. He talked about how we should nail ourselves to the cross. So, whatever we face, we’re carrying the cross and nothing or no one can bring us down.

It reminded me of a song that we sang at my church growing up. A different church, a different time, a different messenger, but the same message. Jesus is the same yesterday, today and forever. Hebrews 13:8 He’s the way, the truth and the life and through Him is the only way to The Father. John 14:6

I’ve had a tough week and there’ve been days that I didn’t want to keep going. But, I’ve also shared that my prayer has been to be a light to the world.

I had a colorful dress on today and as I was walked out of church, the greeter commented and said, “I’m just going to call you sunshine”😂. He started singing, “This little light of mine.”

He had no idea what my prayer has been and how much that elementary song encouraged me to just keep going and to keep letting God’s light shine through me.

No matter what or who I face, I won’t let Satan blow it out, I won’t hide it in fear of attacks. If God is for me, who can be against me. Romans 8:31

We all face stuff in life, but if we carry the cross, there’s nothing that will keep us down.

He is The God of The Hills and Valleys. No matter where we are, His grace is enough and we are standing in His love.

Have a great week and thank you for letting me share!

We are who He says we are

First, I just wanted to say thank you for your encouraging messages and words over this blog and for continuing to read it. My first hope was to have a 1000 views and it went way past that over the last few days!😇

I had such an encouraging and uplifting weekend!

I attended the Sisterhood Conference with Kim Jones Pothier as the speaker. She is my absolute favorite. Her story and her ministry turned my life completely around. She’s very real and has a very powerful message. You can listen to her at http://www.realtalkkim.com

I’ve realized that so many of us struggle with insecurities that can lead to depression and sadness and other negative feelings. BUT GOD, has a different plan for us if we listen and follow Him!

As I was driving to the conference yesterday, KLOVE had the perfect songs playing for me to hear. I got so caught up in worship that I missed my exit. Oops! 😳

The song, ” Who YOU say I Am” came on and God really spoke to me through it.

The lyrics….

https://www.google.com/search?q=who+you+say+i+am+lyrics&ie=UTF-8&oe=UTF-8&hl=en-us&client=safari

We are The Children of a King, We are fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalms 139:14) We were created in His image (Genesis 1:27), We don’t have to be afraid because He even has the hairs on our head numbered. (Luke 12:17) So why is that so hard to accept sometimes?

The next song I heard was Fear is a Liar and it answered that very question.

Satan will come to kill, steal and destroy (John 10:10) through whatever avenue he can.

Personally, my mind is the worst way that he gets to me. If I’m not diligent about being in God’s word and stay focused on the truth, it’s easy to convince myself things that are simply not true. But, He came so that we may have an abundant life. (John 10:10) I BELIEVE that!!!

My prayer has been for God to use me however and wherever I’m needed.

But, when He started to answer that prayer, it brought feelings of questioning my abilities and if I was qualified for the things He was asking me to do. Like write this blog😊

I’ve realized though that it isn’t me at all, but God through me that can do great things. Also, that He doesn’t call the qualified, but qualifies the called.

Kim confirmed that in her message yesterday as she talked about those very things.

I met her afterwards and thanked her for sharing her story and the impact that it’s made in my life. I was telling her about this blog and how I’d reshared it to so many others.

She looked at me and said, you’re qualified because you’re called, He’ll shine brightly through you and you can’t stop now because He’s taking you the next level and farther than you’ve ever gone before! God is so good to answer when we cry out to Him.

I pray we all go further in Him than we’ve ever gone before by believing we are Who HE says we are. May we all live life abundantly through Him.

*I’ve seen a lot of my friends sharing this song. Another good one with the same message*

Have a great week. Thanks for letting me share!😊

I’ll be dancing in the rain because my feet are on The Rock!!!!

My son was in the hospital for a couple of nights this week. I knew it was just an attack to keep me from sharing about God and doing what I’m meant to do.

It didn’t work and God revealed truths to me and I saw how all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are called according to His purpose. Romans 8:28

Saturday morning. I was led to this song. I’d never heard it before, but the words were perfect for what I was walking through and for a lot of others walking through the same thing.

When your kids get sick, you never know if you should let it pass or take them in. It could’ve went either way, but at least I now know he’s 100% healthy. Every organ was checked out with the catscan and all blood work and vitals tested out A-OK.

With being a single mom, it’s overwhelming the responsibility that lies on my shoulders. When the surgeon came in to talk to me, I’m so thankful that family was there to hear what he had to say and could’ve been a voice, if a decision had to be made. The song, He’s a good, good father rang in my spirit all weekend.

We’re all blessed with a good, good Heavenly Father. We are not alone and only He can give us the answers to the tough questions and what we’re all searching for.

We weren’t good enough and that we weren’t loved by others were two huge negative things that were hammered into my head in the past and they often kept me down.

I realized the real truth this weekend. That God is love and the love we felt from others is indescribable!!!

I sat in my son’s room with his friends and mine and heard and shared just how amazing he really is. I always thought it was because he’s mine and I’m partial. But, he truly is an amazing kid that’s loved by so many!!! His face lit up from the love he felt from his friends and so did mine. God is so good!!

Being in the hospital kept me awake and wandering around the floor. I talked to the nurses and was told of an opportunity for my daughter that will help her in her nursing career.

There’s 3 positions that will be opening up up soon that would give her a much more hands-on-experience in patient care in labor and delivery, the very dept. that’s been her dream to work in. God is so good!

None of us know what tomorrow will bring and what our future’s hold.

In the meantime, I know God is love, we are loved and He is a good, good father. I will not be shaken because on Christ the solid rock I stand. I’ll just clap my hands and stomp my feet and I will dance in the rain.

Have a great week and thank you for letting me share😊

Trust and Obey

Writing has really brought such healing to me and it’s been awesome to go back and see the timeline of my walk and how I’ve completely came full circle to the very message and scriptures of where it all started. It’s a journey that’s one day and one step at a time, But, one that I know I’ll finish on top because Jesus is the author and finisher of our faith! I believe that with all I have.

I’ve shared about Danny Anderson’s message, titled Hinderance, that started the process of change for me.

When I went back to this message, he talked about the story in Matthew where, a woman had such great faith that she believed if she just touched the hem of His garment that she’d be healed! He also talked about the story from Mark where He left to go heal others elsewhere because of the lack of faith of the people there.

We can hinder the work of God by our lack of faith or we can bring faith to the table to see our prayers answered. I’ve chosen to bring faith to the table even when I can’t change the circumstances!!

This week in Laura Story’s Bible study, When God doesn’t fix it, she talks about this very story from the Bible.

Her husband was diagnosed with a brain tumor. She talks about how when our prayers aren’t answered for the physical healing and how things don’t turn out sometimes as we planned them. But, His ways are greater than our ways and the plans He has for us, are to prosper us, not to harm us, to give us hope and a future.

She writes, “A God who leaves physically sick people to preach the good news to spiritually sick people is a God who cares more about our souls than our body. That is who Our God is.”

Everyone of us has our own circumstances that make us question why God didn’t fix it. For her it was her husband’s brain tumor. For me, it was a broken marriage and then divorce. For others, maybe the death of a loved one or cancer.

As hard as they all are. If we lean on Him like we should, we may find that blessings come through rain drops, healing comes through tears and a thousand sleepless night lets us know that He is near, what if the trials in our lives are His mercies in disguise?

When God doesn’t fix it or give us what we pray for, that’s what develops our relationship with him and builds our faith. It gives us the strength and the hope to keep fighting on. It is a daily fight that He’s already won!

I wouldn’t be who I am or have the faith that I have if I hadn’t walked through what I have.

I’m being completely open. Even when we’re walking closely with Him and experiencing His goodness, we still have to face things.

It’s been like a roller coater ride for me lately. I’ll be on cloud 9 and then faced with ugly things just to feel down. It reminded me of the words to the song, I get knocked down but I get up again, You’re never gonna keep me down!😊

I BELIEVE that if I’m diligent about being in God’s Word, faithful in my prayers and put actions with my steps, I won’t ever stay down!!!

I’ve heard twice recently that as believers, we should hear and obey and to trust and obey. So true!! Faith doesn’t just happen from leaving our Bibles unopened on the table or our Bible Studies put off until tomorrow. Faith comes by hearing and hearing by the Word of God. We have to put action with what we hear!!

Attend church to be encouraged by it, plug in and encourage right back. I love both of these churches, Emmanuel http://www.eclife.org and my favorite, Charity Church http://www.becharity.com

To add the words of my favorite song to it. Don’t just hear, but stop and listen to Him, trust Him and obey! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XQan9L3yXjc

I’m living this right now! It’s amazing what God can do in us and through us when we are willing!

Or this. So elementary, but so true!! Obedience is the very best way to show that we BELIEVE!😊

Here’s another good song I heard this week when even if God doesn’t fix it and we question, why me or where is He?!?

Thanks for letting me share!!

His arms are opened wide

I’m realizing as I share my story that for the last 20 years. I’ve done what all mothers do, make everything about my kids! I’ve prayed over, worried about and put their every need before my own. It’s what we do!

I’m doing the Bible study “When God Doesn’t Fix it” and this week she gives an illustration that on a family ski trip, her dad wanted to walk before her in the snow, so it would be all packed down and she could follow in his footsteps. Its what my parents do for me and what I try to do for my own kids. But, they’re getting older now and I’ve seen my very prayers answered for them.

It’s my time to shine. my time to heal and my time to see my prayers for myself being answered.

This may seem repetitive if you’ve followed my story. It’s because what I’m living out now are the very prayers I’ve already wrote and posted about with the very scriptures and messages I’ve already shared.

Being verbally put down, I believed in all the negativity that was put in my head. In October of 2016, I heard a message from Pastor Danny at Emmanuel about changing our perspective of how we see things, how to change our lens. I’ve linked it before but will link it again. From that message, I began to see myself through God’s eyes and it began this jourmey of a change. One day at a time, one thing at a time.

**I went back and listened for what I heard the first time. But, when i really listened to it again, I heard a whole new message. One on faith and how we can hinder Gods work by our lack of faith or we can bring our faith to the table and see our prayers answered.*

https://myeclife.org/page/460?Item=69

The illustration from the Bible study talks about how trials are opportunities. An invitation to glorify God, transform our lives and to drive us into the arms and footsteps of Jesus. The best place to be in the good, bad and ugly times! This has been a recent prayer for my own life. I’ve ran away from things for so long and I just recently shared with someone that I don’t want to do that anymore, I want to rum towards God with my arms open wide When we do this, it’s amazing what He can do in us and through us!! Make yourself willing to embrace His arms opened wide, to be used by Him and for Him.

Going through these times is what helps us learn and grow and then be able to share with others our stories. And, it’s just that, we’re going through it! When He goes through it with us, not only does He bring us thorough it, He allows us to break through, taking us further than we could ever imagined.

We all have our own stories, but with Him, He will bring us through and set us free indeed.

As I’ve been on this journey, one of the things that has amazed me the most are the people that God puts in our path that have “been there” or He has chosen to speak through to carry us through.

My emotions have been like a roller coaster because especially when your on the highest of highs is when the attack’s are the greatest! I’d gotten to the point where it didn’t matter the good things that were happening and can continue to happen, I couldn’t take it anymore and wanted to give up!

I was reminded to keep fighting, that God wouldn’t give me more than I could handle and when we’re being stretched is when we’re at our best! The message at church this week was exactly what I needed to hear to bring me through to another day.

I feel like I’ve overshared the song that has been my prayer. But, I just keep praying it and this week I heard the same song, but written in a different version. He talked about how we have to allow God to change us to handle our circumstances when are circumstances aren’t changing.

A friend that I talked to this week has just faced almost the same situation that I’m facing personally right now. I hate that we have to go through this kind of stuff, but she’s ahead of me and as she shared her outcome, it gave me great hope! He’s already won the battle!!!! I just have to stay strong and let Him see me through! In return, I was able to share some things I had heard to give her hope for things she was struggling with.

Another friend this week shared with me how she’d broken off a relationship with someone that couldn’t let go of his past. While I don’t have that exact problem, it is hard sometimes to do things different than I’ve always done

But, I don’t have to hope for anyone’s approval or blessing other than God. It is my hope and prayer to one day hear from Him, “Well done my good and faithful servant.” His approval is the only one that matters.

I’m realizing that God is changing me. I’m a new person, with a new life ahead of me and I need to set new boundaries, this time on my terms with God at center. I don’t have to jump when someone else tells me too. I have the book “Boundaries”. I’m going to re-read and apply it!

I’ve seen this song shared this week and I wanted to share. It sounds like, we as women, all feel this way at times. The lyrics are really good!

Thanks for letting me share!

He loves us just as we are, right where we are

I’ve had such a great week of ups and downs and have so much to share. Not only have I spent time with God, but I’ve spent time with other believers which leads to hearing from God through them, as well. I love my people!😊

I’m leading the Bible study, “When God doesn’t Fix it” at my house with a few friends that have been such a blessing. It’s so on point with where I am in, in my own walk and just what I need to be hearing. It seems to be the same for the others too.

This week, it covered the story of Abraham and Sarah and their struggle with infertility. It was the perfect story of real people that had sinned and tried their own ways without fully trusting in God’s plan for them. But, even with that, God didn’t give up on them. They persevered in their faith and God granted the desires of their heart with the birth of their son at 100 years old. When we put our complete faith in Him, He will see us through to the very end and give us the desires of our heart!

We decided to have that kind of faith

1. We have to be intentional about putting God first in our lives. Making it a priority to be daily in His Word. It truly is a lamp unto our feet and a light unto our path. Giving direct instructions in every thing we face and the strength we need to keep going, when we feel like we can’t. It’s the Living Word that gives new hope in every new situation. The same words, but different meaning, depending on what we’re facing.

2. Be faithful in prayer. Pray the Word, BELIEVE, receive and take the authority that we have through Him!

3. Surround yourself with other believers. They can laugh with us, cry with us and support us through whatever we face in this crazy life. I clung tightly to my circle when I was going through such a tough time and I still cling tightly to them today, getting through to the other side of it. Now. we just get to celebrate the victories!!!

4, Learn and grow from what we walk through and live out an example to those around us.

Even with the good things this week, I was really struggling with some things. I was pushed a little (spurred a little, if you go to Charity lol) to be reminded of what I already knew from within my own spirit, to keep going and to hear and obey!

I’ve shared the song that’s been the prayer for my life lately. It starts with, I don’t want to hear anymore, teach me to listen; I don’t want to see anymore, but give me a vision. To change me to handle the circumstances, when the circumstances aren’t changed.

My kids are getting older and my #1 mom fail was not making them help when they were little.

My love language is acts of service, both giving and receiving them. I thought I was being a good mom by doing everything for them. As they get older, I realize that I wasn’t helping them to become the best that they are meant to be.

Being a single mom is an overwhelming responsibility and I’m not their maid or their secretary and they need to help me and respect me. How will they ever know, though, if I do everything for them and not teach them to do it own their own. Tough love is just that, especially for me, but they’ll thank me for it later. My dad made us walk the line when we were younger and I’m so glad now he did!!! My brother tested the limits a lot more than I did, but I think we both turned out A-OK. Now, instilling in our kids, what was instilled in us!

I’m raising future husbands and wives; mom’s and dads; uncles and aunts. Plus, when I’m older I want them to come spend time with me and help in the yard and carry out the trash cans etc. I’ll put them to work and they’ll do it happily because they know it’s what’s important to me!😜

If you’ve never done the discovering your love language, it’s really good to see how we relate with others. There’s one for yourself and for your kids

http://www.5lovelanguages.com/

I’ve done this 100 times, even changing my answers, but acts of service is always my top.

As I get older and my kids get older, spending time with them becomes more of a top one for me. Time flies and tomorrow is never promised!!!!

They have no idea how happy it makes all of us moms, when they’re all home together. There’s nothing that makes me happier. I push for it every chance I get!

My kids (some more than others) want my attention for their EVERY need NOW. I can’t do it all! But, what I can do is stop and listen for the things that are most important to them and make them the most important to me. The rest they can learn to do own their own and become better for it!!

Even at 43, my mom wants to remind me of what I should be doing and especially what the kids need me to be doing for them. I’ll answer, ok Mother😊 She hates it when I call her that.

It’s not that things are going one ear and out the other. It’s a ✅, I get it, I just have to prioritize the things that are most important right now.

I don’t want to make this too long, but just this week God gave me vision late Friday night and by Sat at 10 AM, it was in full swing. I actually didn’t even have the details worked out. I showed up expecting a green light to go for it and I got it! It all went better than I could’ve ever imagined. It all came about from something my mom initiated, without her even knowing it. Keep doing and reminding me mom, even when I call you mother.😘

I had breakfast with a friend Sat. morning and we discovered this from talking about being used by God in our jobs, in our families and in our churches……Who knew we could be a hot mess and a shining light at same time😂. But, we sure can be. God loves us as we are and where we are. He can use us, if we let Him! She shared her favorite song with me and it’s perfect!

Big dreams can lead to big things. But, it’s the small dreams that create simple moments that can change the world!!! I pray, I’ll never forget that!

Have a great week! Thanks for letting me share!