It seems like I’d run out of things to write about, but God has really been moving and so much has been flowing within me. Writing has been so helpful in getting it all out, as I move forward in my life!
Moving forward has been such a timely process for me, but I finally feel released to let go and move on!
I believed in my marriage. Well, I believe in the idea of marriage and I took the vows I made literal . I still would’ve been in that relationship, even though it wasn’t good from the get go. But, it was mine and I loved with my whole heart and gave it my all!!
But, he left and there’s nothing I could do about it and nothing more I could’ve tried to make him stay. I’m far from perfect, but I know I couldn’t have done any more within my marriage to make it work!✅
I absolutely have no hard feelings towards him and that can only be because of God. I will always care about him, we have 4 kids together and will be tied together forever in life through them. Plus, he needs everyone looking out for him that he can get😜. Just yesterday, as I walked past his car at the ballpark, I rolled up his windows, grabbed the keys out of the cupholder and locked it for him. There were 2 sets of keys and I grabbed the wrong one . Luckily, it didn’t lock and I was then able to grab the right set and lock it up! Shew!!!
I, also want to thank my family, if anyone reads this, for always honoring my wishes and handling the situation with dignity, kindness, respect and grace. I’m sure they didn’t want to at times, but for my sake and the sake of my kids, they handled it all very well!!! To be honest, my mom had to keep me in check sometimes, reminding me to stay kind for my kid’s sake. Thanks mom😘
I don’t share these things to condemn, but its part of my story and it’s so amazing to see how God brought me through this and could help bring someone else through it too!
Only if you’ve been there, could someone else understand this. Divorce had such a hold over me. I felt such a sense of guilt and failure. I now know that there’s only one reason for divorce, biblically, and I had that in my favor.✅We shouldn’t be unequally yoked with non believers. He claims to be a believer, but wasn’t pursuing after Him. So, I had that in my favor as well. ✅I’m not a bible scholar and don’t really even feel comfortable quoting scriptures. But, that’s what helped me realize, it was ok and to know that I’d done everything I could’ve done plus some✅ A door closed. One that I can lock and throw away the key!✅
Realizing these things, just this summer, I feel released to let go and move on!
God has the best ahead for me and I cannot wait to see what and who!
I completely trust Him and look forward to my future. But, I have to admit, it is very scary and unknown. A lot of changes are coming up for me. My girls are moving out, I’m selling my home that I’ve lived in for 16 years and that I’m very emotionally attached to. May he lead me step-by-step in the perfect direction. Have a good week! Thank you for letting me share!