A lamp unto our feet and a Light unto our Path

God is so good and has literally brought me full circle in so many areas that I have to share. I always wrestle a little about posting, but I can’t shake the feeling of not sharing. I’m going to continue this post later because there are just too many God moments to share in one. I just think of it as my online diary. A place where, if you’ve followed, then you’ll share in the joy of my journey. If you haven’t followed, you can read my previous posts and see just how much of a God story I have and how much He’s done for me. He can do the same for you!

In my darkest days, I was taught so well how to lean on the Holy Spirit, how to learn and know scripture, how to pray those scriptures and stand on the truth of His Word, how to know the voice of the Holy Spirit who can truly guide our every step. I thank God for those that poured into me and took the time to always answer my phone calls with millions of questions as I was learning and growing and for guidance when I was hurting and needed prayer. There’s too many to name everyone, but Pastor David & Carla, get the prize for always answering my phone calls and being great teachers and Paul, for answering all my questions with a ? and emails! 😊

For a visual, I was buried beneath years of STUFF( an unplanned pregnancy, rough marriage, deep wounds, heartache and pain of divorce, raising 4 kids as a single parent & just figuring out life in general) that I had to dig my way out of. Literally, one thing at a time, one day at a time. One of my pastors described it as shaking off the old “soil” to allow myself to stand higher & higher on fresh “soil”. As I now stand on higher, solid ground, I’m living dreams come true and prayers answered!

In my last couple of posts, I’ve talked about sitting around the kitchen table with family! Almost like I knew what was to come in the days ahead. I had no way of knowing, but I do know what my hopes and prayers have been!💕

Usually on Easter Sunday, my parents host and do all the cooking and plan all the little extras. I’m glad they do too. It’s a lot of work and $$ .😉 They were out of town this year and I had the privilege of hosting.

We had a good dinner with all my kids home, except one, who was on vacation, my brother & SIL and nieces stopped by and my in laws were here too. They played cards at the kitchen table, debated their different opinions on politics! 🤷‍♀️. We had an Easter egg hunt with $$. It was a lot fun watching my almost adult kids wrestle over the golden egg. A great day and priceless memories were made!

A week before Easter, I asked on Facebook for book recommendations for my son. He loves to learn and was looking for something to read as he’s maturing and just looking for guidance as he grows.

After everyone had left on Easter Sunday, he and I got into an unplanned conversation about life. He really challenges me because he’s a deep thinker and asks lots of questions ( kind of like his momma😊) We went to the Word and reminded ourselves what the fruits of the spirit are and how that should be evident in all we do, if we’re striving to do our part as Christian’s. We had really good prayer together and he asked about developing his own prayer life. I gave him the same advice that was given to me. Find a quiet place daily just talk to Him.If you’ve ever watched the movie War Room, that’s a perfect example. From my own experience too, learning to hear His voice is so important as that’s how He leads us!! We also talked about the importance of surrounding yourself with other believers.

Some of my dear friends had been inviting me to visit their church and the following Sunday I went with them. I’d never been and I’ve never just visited with friends before. The message that day was exactly what my son and I had talked about just the week before. I whispered to my friend sitting next to me that I was about to jump out of my seat! 😊 I talked to the Pastor afterward. He gave me a book for my son to read AND he graduated from the same college my son attends now. He recommended, as important as reading is, getting involved in groups on campus was just as important. Having gone there himself, he recommended the exact groups to look into. He said to let my son know that he’s praying for him and he could reach out to him anytime. He’d even love to catch a game at his alma mater sometime.

As I’ve reflected on life’s journey, I’m writing this with tears of joy flowing. God is so good and has been so faithful! There were years that I wondered if the tough days would ever end if God was really there and hearing me! Even though I didn’t see it or couldn’t feel it at times, He was there all along, holding us in the palm of His hands. He knew the plans for us….to give us hope and a bright future. Providing a lamp unto our feet and a light unto our path! And in the words of a dear friend, He’s far from finished!!!

May we all have the faith to trust in Him with all our hearts for our lives and our futures!

Thank you for letting me share.

When We all get to Heaven, What a day of Rejoicing that will be

I was blessed with 2 wonderful sets of grandparents and a bonus grandma too! I’m the oldest and gave them their names, Mamaw and FaFa! 😂 I’ve been thinking of and missing them a lot lately, but have realized how much of them are with me and in me every day. Both of my Mamaw’s were superstitious, and whether this is true or not, we don’t put on our shoes on the table because that’s bad luck and we never do laundry on New Years Day because that could wash someone out of the family!

I run the sweeper in straight lines the way Mamaw did. We knew never to walk on her freshly swept carpet and mess up those lines too! We definitely knew never to wake up Fafa when he was sleeping! Every time I comment about the gas prices or stock market, I think of my grandpa in KY. I can’t repeat what he’d say about that though! Lol! I loved going to their house, sitting at their kitchen table and looking out the window at the pretty view, like we’ve all done so many times before. If they were there, there’d be plenty of snacks on that table with a salt shaker nearby and a big, green cup at the kitchen sink. The snacks were there to hold us over for the main feast that she’d been preparing for weeks. Pretty soon, she’d be yelling that her green beans were burning or to shut the door, we were letting flies in!

My last grandparent (FaFa) passed away in 2020. I’m 46 now and I can’t even tell you how many times I’ve started to text or call him to tell him the latest with me and the kids. He lit up when we went to visit them or heard our stories. Or, I’ll think, if FaFa was here, he’d be fussing, or if Mamaw was here, Miss Pat would’ve been fit to be tied! I’ve heard when you see a cardinal, it means someone from heaven is visiting. When I see one, whether that’s true or not, I’ll just say Mamaw and Fafa came by for a visit!

I’ve been thinking a lot about them lately because now that my kids are older and come home to visit, we’ll sit around the kitchen table talking, laughing or playing cards. (what is it about families and the kitchen table?), my daughter goes shopping in my pantry instead of going to the grocery store. When I send leftovers home, I’ll make sure to remind them to bring back the containers. I do certain things because that’s just how my dad did it or that’s just how my aunts/uncles did it. My aunt and I have had some good laughs about some of the “beauty secrets” I have 😂 because that’s how she did it.

Recently, I said to my kids, I sound just like my mom and as I’ve thought about it, that’s a good thing. She’s a lot like her mom (dad) and they’re a lot like theirs and so on down the line. Ya know, often, when you’re frustrated with your spouse or irritated with your kids, “you’re just like your mom (dad)” is a negative thing. 😉 Both my grandpa’s favorite question was if if I had a boyfriend. I don’t at the moment, let alone a spouse, but if I ever do, I already know what my response will be. Thank you, because that makes me proud. That’s just a little background to you all about what’s been on my mind and in my prayers lately.

I’ve just been praying that I’ll be the best version of me, a combination of all the best traits of those before me. To use the strengths for good and better the weaknesses. I’ve been praying the same for my kids too, that they’ll be the best combination of their families. Can you imagine how great our future grandkids and great grandkids could be, if we all strived to be the best version of ourselves and those before us?

I thought about how all the grandkids and great kids sang together at my grandpa’s funeral. He loved music and played every instrument imaginable. When we were all together, not much made him happier then when we’d all sing together.

It’s a beautiful song that gave me a vision of what it’ll be like when we all get to heaven!

I just hope and pray that my friends and family will be proud that I’m their mom, grandma, sister, aunt, 2nd mom…..whoever, just like I’m proud that they’re mine.

Thanks for letting me share!

Living on a Prayer brings Beauty from Ashes

Hi! I hope everyone’s doing well and enjoying spring! We just got home from our week of spring break where we had lots of sunshine, laughter and wonderful memories were made! I haven’t written for awhile, but my heart is so full and I have so much to share. Just a warning…it may be a long post! 😉 If you’ve followed me, some things may be repetitive. To the new readers, I promise there’s hope that with God, you can overcome and will make it through!! I’m now living answered prayer! Actually, lots of them!! I’m definitely not an expert, but I’d love share with you what God did for me!

I first started writing this blog because, at the time, I was looking for something to bring guidance to single women with kids after a divorce. I couldn’t find anything, so I just decided to write my own. 😊 It became very therapeutic in helping me to heal! I’ve been amazed at the number of women I’ve heard from that “needed to hear” what was written who had been through the same thing or are currently going through the same.

I grew up in church where my parents had the BEST group of friends, with kids that have become my dearest friends. We vacationed together, went out for dinner’s together, lived at each other’s houses, we fought like sisters over things, we fought over boys. We joke, those boys we fought over then are bald and ugly now haha!…..Church camp and youth group are some of my greatest memories!!! I’m so thankful for my Christian heritage and foundation that was life-saving in my adult years!!

Like every girl, my dream was to have a life just like mine growing up! I didn’t know any different! When I got married, it wasn’t what I dreamed of. It was a lot to go, yet grow, through, very unhealthy, toxic, a lot of belittling, very demeaning. It took the life out me, it took the joy away from me. It’s taken a lot of years to heal from it and find happiness within myself. But, as you read on, you’ll see, I did it, WE DID IT!!!💕

I want to be clear. I don’t have any hard feelings and wouldn’t change those years because of all the good and bad that shaped us. I’ll be the first to say, no negativity towards anyone, just ask my brother and my parents! 😜. I have to say , I commend them for honoring that wish and showing grace and mercy when I know they didn’t always feel it! My mom would even remind me of that at times I’d start to voice my own irritation in front of my kids. I have 4 wonderful kids that I’m so proud of and love with all my heart, I’ve crossed paths with wonderful people that I may not have known otherwise. What I walked through made my faith what it is and made me who I am today! I chose to cling to the cross, I chose to know, quote and pray scripture into my situation, pray song lyrics that spoke to me, sermons, books, whatever it took!!

When my kids were little, I did the best I could to make sure they had as “normal” of life as possible. I shuttled to/from practices, bday parties, team parties etc.-they definitely had a full social life!💕 Really, I overcompensated for them, wanting to fill a void being from a divorced family. We didn’t carpool much, or share rides often, mom/Mamaw/pop/uncle Greg got the job done! I also had wonderful in-laws that love me my kiddos fiercely and helped a lot too!

Groups of people gave me terrible anxiety! Im so thankful for “my people”, but I really isolated myself and was very closed off from the rest of the world. I did my best on the outside, but inside was so unhappy and miserable! My advice to anyone in a similar place, don’t isolate yourself because what happens is , you’re alone with your own thoughts that can run rampant in the wrong direction! Trust in the Lord, find “your people”, stay engaged and know that YOU ARE NOT ALONE!!!

As the years have gone on, I’m a completely different person, happy on the outside and inside too. It’s hard being a single person and finding your place and where you fit! Couples hang out together and even if you’re made a part, it’s a feeling that unless you’ve been there, it’s hard to understand. I have the best family and friends and had no reason to carry the thoughts-feelings that I did. Isolating and being alone with my thoughts brought about so many things that weren’t truth!!

Now, I get to share the true point of this post and how this past week wasn’t just a vacation, but truly 23 years of answered prayers! My youngest son asked if we could go with a group of his friends and families on spring break (a group of 35 🤣) As you’ve read, that wasn’t my favorite thing and I was a nervous wreck on the inside. But, you know, the things we do for our kids!!😊 I’m so glad that I faced that “fear”. We had an absolute blast! I made new friends that I felt like I’ve known my whole life and strengthened old friendships by getting to know them better. I laughed so hard, went white water rafting , zip-lined, tried new restaurants with all kind of different, interesting foods! We really had a fun-filled week!!

As I was thinking about our week and the great time we had, I realized that every single one of my kids had a connection with a family there from being a classmate or teammate. It was an amazing feeling that although I may have been closed off/ guarded over the years, God knew the exact people that I needed to help me raise my kid! ! It takes a village and I’m so thankful for each and every one of you!!

As my kids get older and we’re in a different phase of life, sometimes trusting what’s to come for them and me is challenging. But, from how God’s guided my steps in the past and given us such a full, blessed life, my is plan to keep on keeping on. I have COMPLETE FAITH that God holds us in the palm of His hands and our future’s will be greater than we could even hope for or imagine! Love you all!

Thanks for letting me share!

Raise a Hallelujah

I haven’t blogged for awhile. Warning, this might be a long post!😊

I was sharing my story with someone today and it was a great reminder of my journey. The reason I started blogging was to help those that might be going through the same thing. I believe hearing, “I’ve been there” is the most comforting phrase.

I began this blog in July of 2018. At that time, I was broken and deeply wounded from an unhealthy relationship.

There were good things through the years, but the negativity truly took it’s toll on me. It affected me in ways that I didn’t even realize until I started healing from it. I believe we all struggle from insecurities, but when negative things are hammered in to your head, day after day, you begin to believe those things about yourself.

The truth is, we are children of a King. We were created in His image, fearfully and wonderfully made!

I’ll never forget hearing a sermon about changing our perspective and seeing ourselves through God’s eyes. That began my journey of little- by- -little, piece-by piece, day-by-day allowing God to change my perspective and fix all the broken pieces.

I often turned worship songs into my prayers and just thinking back to the different ones, God has really given me a new song to sing!

The song I first began praying over and over was, “When the hurt and the healer collide.”

There were days I would just cry out to God to take the pain away and collide with the hurt. I wondered if it’d ever end. Some days I felt like it’d never go away. God sure works in His timing, but He was there through it all!!

It was a time that God was growing my faith, strengthening me and making me who He meant for me to be.

The next song then became my prayer. I knew that I couldn’t always change my circumstances, but I believed that God could change how I handled them and change my perspective to see things more like Him. My heart’s cry became for God to change me (and fix the brokenness) and that He would be shown through me in all of it!

I’m not who I was then. God gave me complete healing, a joy and a peace and a new song to sing and pray!

We sang this in church today and it was another great reminder that through it all God has been my go to. He hears our heart’s cry. It makes me want to share it, pray it, sing it and give Him all the glory and all the praise!!

We all have storms that we’ll continue to go through! In them, we just need to sing in the middle of the storm and sing louder and louder!! In the end, we will be able to Raise a Hallelujah for all God has done!!

Thank you for letting me share!😊 Love and prayers to all of you!

What a difference a year makes

I hope everyone is looking forward to the holidays! I sure am! I don’t have my Christmas tree up yet, but I do have quite a few presents bought and waiting to be wrapped. That’s a first for me! I’m usually a Christmas Eve shopper.

I’m in such a good place right now and so excited for the bright days ahead!

But, I know the holidays are hard for some of you! Even last year because of what I was going through at the time, I didn’t even put a Christmas tree up or wrap a present. Gift cards and gift bags came in handy! 😜 I usually put up 5 trees and decorate the halls and walls and every where else I can find a spot!

I’m only sharing this to say, what a difference a year makes!!! We have so much hope in our Lord and Savior and if we give our hurts over to Him, He can and will completely heal us of all of the them and bring a joy that is indescribable!

I look back on my journey and though it was awful at times, He never left me and was there every step of the way! I became who I am because of what I went through and learned to trust and love God more and more every day.

It was one step at a time and one day at a time. I’m so thankful that His mercies are new every day. He gave me the strength to keep fighting to face those days and take those steps even when I didn’t feel like it! He can do it for you too!

I recently talked with a friend who is experiencing hurt and it reminded me of the grueling process of how I got through painful times and how far He’s brought me.

One of the things that helped me was reaching out to those that I knew would listen and keep me in their thoughts and prayers! Early on it was hard for me to muster the words to pray for myself! But, we are to be the body of Christ. I’m so thankful for those that were His hands, feet and listening ears for me!

Songs also helped! I’d play them over and over and turn them into prayers, crying out for my situation. When you let your hurt and the true healer collide, He will bring you comfort and one day heal all the pain. His plans are to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future! (Jeremiah 29:11) What hope we have in Him!

If you’re hurting today, listen to the words of this song! They helped me!

God is so good and He’s right there waiting with His arms wide open to heal our hurts. Love, prayers and Happy Thanksgiving!!

Thank you for letting me share! 🙂

Lean on me when you have no strength to stand

I can’t even tell you how important it is to know God’s word. It truly is a lamp unto our feet and a light unto our path. Learning and knowing His voice also makes all the difference in knowing that we’re walking the right path.

Things are going well. I know God’s in control and He’s really changed me over the last few years. But, I felt like I was at a stand still, not knowing what’s next, life changes as my kid’s are getting older etc.

But, something as silly as putting a shirt on backwards gave me fresh hope and a new perspective. When the shirt was uncomfortable, I said to myself, “oh, that’s the back not the front .” Immediately this scripture came to mind, “The Lord will make you the head and not the tail; you will move upward and not downward, if you hear and carefully follow the commandments of the Lord your God, which I am giving to you today.” (Duet. 28:13, Berean Study Bible). It was His voice telling me to keep following Him and He’ll continue moving me in the right direction- forward and upward.

Life is such a journey of uncomfortable situations sometimes and such a process. I visualize it like a GPS. Go 3 miles, turn right at this exit. We’ll hit pot holes, road construction, closed roads, stand still traffic and detours, but there’s no better feeling than arriving at your destination.

Going through a painful divorce and healing from of an unhealthy relationship has been a long road. I hit a lot of the above. Over time, I was cruising right along and dealing with things as they came. But, this time last year, I hit a bump having to relive some of the most hurtful times.

I recognized it as having to go through it all again to deal with the unhealed wounds to arrive at complete healing. Wounds I didn’t even know existed.

Growing up at church, we sang a song called “Lean on Me.” The lyrics, I’ll feel His arms around me and I’ll hear Him gently say “Lean on me when you have no strength to stand, when you feel you’re going under, hold tighter to my hand. Lean on me…….you’ll find I’m all you need.”

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=qXU0lzPvDXs&list=RDqXU0lzPvDXs&start_radio=1

Not only am I so thankful that we can lean on Him through our struggles, but you’ll always hear me say how thankful I am for the people that God puts in our paths. Believe me, I didn’t want to revisit those hurtful times. I was good, I’d went far enough and I wanted to stop right where I was. I wouldn’t have kept going had it not been for the faithful friends that pushed me to keep going to arrive at all that God has for me.

Pushing through in that final stretch, the wounds were completely healed. The brick on my chest and the weight on my shoulders is gone. The cloud that hung over me from my past is gone and I realized it doesn’t define my future!

My word for this year is surrender. I’ve really learned to take my hands off and trust God!! That’s what faith is right?!? 😊When I find myself beginning to worry, I remind myself- Nope! I’m trusting God. I know the scriptures I’ve prayed that won’t return void. I’ll hold my hands open as I pray and say, “it’s in your hands, not mine!!”

My hope is that God would be glorified through our life and we can use for good the things that we’ve walked through to be a help and encouragement to others.

I hope to give hope to someone that’s been through what I have or that can be encouraged to keep going, if you’re on a bumpy road. God is right there with us through it all- the bumpy roads and when we’re cruising!! He will lead us to our destinations.

For my kids- I’ve heard from several parents of the friends of one of my kiddos how they’ve used for good the things they’ve experienced to be an encouragement to their friends. It makes me a proud momma for sure, but most of all, I’m thankful that God hears our prayers! I really appreciate those parents reaching out to me. They have no idea what’s in my prayer time every single day. It just gives me confirmation and reassurance that God’s been there through it all!

I’ve noticed another kiddo maturing and taking an interest in learning things that’ll make life better. I’m thankful for the circle of people God has in their path that’ve been there to teach things that I can’t. Why do they always listen to other people better than us?!? 😜 Regardless, I’m grateful!!

We’re all a work in progress and He’s still working on me. But, He’s been so good and so faithful and I have faith in where He’s leading me!!

Thank you for letting me share!!!

Soar on wings like eagles

Sometimes I wonder if anyone reads this😜. But, I’ve been encouraged by my faithful readers to post❤️.

I’ve often shared how both of my churches are right on point with what I’m walking through or what’s stirring in my own heart. Both pastor’s talked about waiting well on the Lord and how God strengthens those who wait on Him.

I’ve done a lot of reflecting of the past years, thanks to facebook memories 🙂 and some other things as well. I wanted to share my own story of the hope and renewed strength that God can give you. Not just to trudge through the difficulties, but to soar on wings like eagles.

Three years ago, I was in a very dark place. After hearing Danny’s message about changing our lens and seeing things through Gods eyes and having a conversation with a God sent friend, I gave it all to the Lord. He didn’t change my circumstances or things that life brings about. But, He changed me in knowing how to handle the situations better.

I began to pour into and pray the scriptures and apply messages and songs that I’d heard into my own situation. Deuteronomy 30:3~God your God will restore everything you lost; He’ll have compassion on you; He’ll come back and pick up the pieces from all the places where you scattered. He did that very thing for me. One day at a time, one thing at a time, little by little piece by piece, He’s put every broken piece back together.

I prayed for years for God to restore my marriage that ended in divorce. Divorce is so painful and brings such worry for your kids that now have to live in a broken home. I’ve learned though that we don’t have to worry but fully trust in Him. His ways are better than our ways and His plan is perfect!

Not only was divorce painful but being in a toxic, unhealthy relationship affected me in ways that I didn’t even realize. There were days I only got up to do what I had to. It was easy to smile on the outside, but on the inside I was broken. Since I’ve given it to God, He’s healed every broken piece and given me a renewed strength, hope and an unexplainable joy!!!

I share this not to condemn anyone, but I know there are others that have been or are in the same place. I know this because we’ve shared our stories with one another, shared scriptures, songs, tears and celebrated victories 🎉. Just know that you are not alone and He can and will bring you through it.

Don’t believe the negativity that’s poured into your head! When I began to see things through God’s eyes and the truth through His word, He changed me! We are daughter’s of a King who are fearfully and wonderfully made. We are who He says we are and He has a plan and purpose for all of us. His plan is to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future!

This memory popped up from about a year ago and still true today.

I’ve been traveling with my son for baseball and was in the same location as a year ago! But, God’s done so much for me, I’m definitely in a much better place in my life! Woo hoo!

I also started blogging a year ago after this post and I had no idea what God would do through it. I hope it’s been a blessing to you all as much as it’s been to me.

It’s such a journey, we have good days and bad. But, when every day is just another struggle, another choice is an act of war, gotta pray and press on the prize worth fighting for!

Like then, I have no idea what tomorrow holds. But, I have more trust and faith in the one who holds my future!

I pray that God will give all of us a hope and renewed strength to soar on wings like eagles!!

Thanks for letting me share 🙂

My Savior loves, my Savior loves, my Savior’s always there for me

I’ve been thinking all week about the beauty and meaning of Easter! Oh how I love Him. But oh how much more He loves us. “For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life” (John 3:16). ” An abundantly full life!

Salvation is just the beginning of the abundantly full life we can have through Christ.

As I’ve reflected on my own life. I was saved at a young age and been a believer for a long time and always prayed about the little things.

But, it wasn’t until I committed to knowing Him, being in His word , praying those words into my situations and being in a relationship with Him that I’ve experienced life abundantly.

We all have struggles, but it’s through those times that we can look back and see how God carried us through, how it builds our faith and gives us more of what we need to face the next struggle, only to become stronger and gain more faith.

I’ve really learned lately how to truly “Trust in the Lord with all thine heart and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct thy paths.” (Proverbs 3:5-6) How easy is it to let our own thoughts or worries consume us even when we’ve prayed for God to help us.

But, when we take our hands off and truly leave it in His, it changes everything!!! It’s changed my perspective, it’s taken the weight off my shoulders and given me a peace that is indescribable.

If you’re a new believer or been a believer for a long time. I encourage you to get to know Him better and truly trust Him to direct your paths. He is able to do exceeding abundantly more than we ever hope or imagine.

This song has been in my spirit all week. My Savior loves, my savior lives, my Savior is always there for me! So true!

Thanks for letting me share😊

I came that they may have life and have it above

There’s two scriptures that have really been stirring in my heart.

1. The thief comes only to steal, kill and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it abundantly!

2.. And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God. to them who are the called according to His purpose!

I’ve shared my story very openly and there has been a lot of hurt, a lot of healing and recovering. But, God didn’t just bring me through it. He grew me through it. With every situation I’ve faced, I’m still standing! I stand stronger with a brighter smile and a greater hope and Joy that only God can give. I have a stronger faith than I ever would have, had I not gone through tough things, I have a stronger ear to hear His voice as He leads me through life, He has given me an abundantly blessed life!!!

I’m so thankful for all the good that’s came out of every bad situation. Im thankful for the God given relationships that I have because of it! God knows exactly what and who we need to shape us in every stage of life. Through my marriage, I had great pastors that poured in and taught me well how to be an overcomer, how to be a praying momma, spiritual moms that poured into me. One, I sat with for a couple of hours just the other night, who still pours into me and friendships that can pick up right where we left off. Those that push us to be who God’s meant us to be, even when we don’t feel like it! Those are priceless things and I truly am abundantly blessed!

If you know me, my passionate purpose is to be a praying mom. When you go through a rocky marriage and divorce, you hope those choices won’t have a negative effect over your kids.

When they were little, even though I’d pray for them, it still was almost a hopeless feeling, like, there’s nothing I can do to fix this for them! But, over time, it changed from there’s nothing I can do to fix it, to I can only do my best and TRUST that God has them in the palm of His hands! Even in the last couple of days, I’ve had such a peace because of the trust I have in Our Good, Good Heavenly Father and know that He’s in control!!

As if there’s no doubt, no fear, no question, whatever life may throw at us tomorrow or next week or next month, I wouldn’t handle it any differently than I have in the past because of the good things that have came in the final outcome!

My brother accuses me of bragging on my kids 😜 but it’s more of having a very grateful and blessed heart!

They’ve all experienced so much that they never should’ve had to and that I have no control over. Yet, they’ve all rose above the circumstances and excelled in their lives. I’m so thankful for God’s hand over them and for each person He’s put in their lives that have been exactly what and who they needed! They’ve been abundantly blessed with the best teachers, coaches, parents of their friends that I could ever hope for and who truly love them!!!

It’s really made me think about the Body of Christ and how we all need each other!

I have a friend from when our now 20 year old girls were in fourth grade.

That was a rough season of life that I literally isolated myself from the world and only did what I had to do to get through. So, I’m not sure how we became friends, but now all these years later, when I write or post on Facebook, she is always the first to respond with a kind or encouraging word, that I’m an inspiration to her. But, really it’s the other way around! It’s those little things that mean so much and God knew then, who and what I needed.

Last week, a friend I grew up with in church text asking what I liked from Starbucks. A little later, her son and his girlfriend came in with Starbucks in hand. That kindness touched my heart. Mainly, because there’s nothing like those special friends from childhood that become lifelong/lifeline friends! God knew what and who I needed. I’m grateful, thankful and blessed!

So, thank you to every single person that’s been the hands and feet of Jesus in mine and my kids life! May we all carry each other’s burden’s and celebrate in one another’s victories!! Love you all dearly!!!!

He will continue His work until it is finally finished

I haven’t written for awhile, but to hear from others that reading my story made a difference, it’s encouraging to keep writing!

I don’t know who needs to hear this. But, I was in a toxic relationship for a long time. I suffered silently for so long because you don’t want anyone to know and just hope and pray that it’ll change. We can’t change people. But, if we allow Him to, God can put every broken piece back together in us.

I am so thankful for those those that God purposefully put in my own life to help and encourage and be a life line that I desperately.

The day that I chose to fully give it God. He began to change me and I started too see myself through God’s eyes instead of the negativity that was poured into my head. Pray the scriptures over your life and believe you’re who God says you are. I would even pray the words to songs over my situation.

There are days you think you’re all healed and then salt gets poured in a wound, you didn’t even know was still there. TRUST that God uses all things to work together for our good! Let it work for good, use it to let Him heal you and lead you to the next step that’ll take you further than you’ve ever been before !! One day at a time, one step at a time if that what it takes.

Being torn down for most everything I did, I feared breathing wrong. Don’t be afraid, it’s ok to make mistakes, we all do! to All yourself grace and forgiveness. We’re all just broken, works in progress.

Life’s a journey. But, I am certain that The God who began the good work in you, will continue His work until it is finally finished.” Trust Him and never give up!!!